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makefile下$(wildcard $^),$^,$@,$?,$&,$(@D),$(@F)代表的不同含义
$(filter-out $(PHONY) $(wildcard $^),$^)
常用用法为$(wildcard *.c)
表示列举当前目录下的所有.c文件
这里$^因为会包含依赖的文件名,如果包含的该文件存在,那么将返回其含路径的文件名
所以$(wildcard $^)就是用来过滤$^包含的所有文件并且该文件确实在本地存在.
自动化变量$?代表依赖文件列表中被改变过的所有文件。
自动化变量$^代表所有通过目录搜索得到的依赖文件的完整路径名(目录 + 一般文件名)列表。
自动化变量$@代表规则的目标。
自动化变量$&代表规则中通过目录搜索得到的依赖文件列表的第一个依赖文件。
自动化变量$(@D)
The directory part of the file name of the target,
with the trailing slash removed. If the value of ‘$@’ is dir/foo.o
then ‘$(@D)’ is dir. This value is . if ‘$@’ does not contain a slash.
http://www.gnu.org/software/make/manual/make.html
自动化变量$(@F)
The file-within-directory part of the file name of
the target. If the value of ‘$@’ is dir/foo.o then ‘$(@F)’ is foo.o.
‘$(@F)’ is equivalent to ‘$(notdir $@)’.
4.12 静态模式
静态模式规则是这样一个规则:
规则存在多个目标,
并且不同的目标可以根据目标
文件的名字来自动构造出依赖文件。
静态模式规则比多目标规则更通用,
它不需要多个
目标具有相同的依赖。
但是静态模式规则中的依赖文件必须是相类似的而不是完全相同
静态模式规则的语法
首先,我们来看一下静态模式规则的基本语法:
TARGETS ...: TARGET-PATTERN: PREREQ-PATTERNS ...
“TAGETS”
列出了此规则的一系列目标文件。
像普通规则的目标一样可以包含通
配符。关于通配符的使用可参考 4.4 文件名使用通配符 一节
“TAGET-PATTERN”和“PREREQ-PATTERNS”说明了如何为每一个目标文件
生成依赖文件。从目标模式(TAGET-PATTERN)的目标名字中抽取一部分字符串(称
为“茎”。使用“茎”替代依赖模式(PREREQ-PATTERNS)中的相应部分来产生对
应目标的依赖文件。下边详细介绍这一替代的过程。
首 先 在目标模式和依赖模式中 ,一般需要包含模式字符“% ”
。在目标模式
(TAGET-PATTERN)中“%”可以匹配目标文件的任何部分,模式字符“%”匹配的
部分就是“茎”
。目标文件和目标模式的其余部分必须精确的匹配。看一个例子:目标
“foo.o”符合模式“%.o”
,其“茎”为“foo”
。而目标“foo.c”和“foo.out”就不符
合此目标模式。
每一个目标的依赖文件是使用此目标的“茎”代替依赖模式
(PREREQ-PATTERNS)中的模式字符“%”而得到。例如:上边的例子中依赖模式
(PREREQ-PATTERNS)为“%.c”
,那么使用“茎”
“foo”替代依赖模式中的“%”
得到的依赖文件就是“foo.c”
。需要明确的一点是:在模式规则的依赖列表中使用不包
含模式字符“%”也是合法的。代表这个文件是所有目标的依赖文件。
在模式规则中字符‘%’可以用前面加反斜杠“\”方法引用。引用“%”的反斜杠
也可以由更多的反斜杠引用。引用“%”“\”的反斜杠在和文件名比较或由“茎”代
替它之前会从模式中被删除。反斜杠不会因为引用“%”而混乱。如,模式
“the\%weird\\%pattern\\”是“the%weird\”+“%”+“pattern\\”构成。最后的两个
反斜杠由于没有任何转义引用“%”所以保持不变。
我们来看一个例子,它根据相应的.c 文件来编译生成“foo.o”和“bar.o”文件:
objects = foo.o bar.o
all: $(objects)
$(objects): %.o: %.c
$(CC) -c $(CFLAGS) $& -o $@
例子中,规则描述了所有的.o文件的依赖文件为对应的.c文件,对于目标“foo.o”
其茎“foo”替代对应的依赖模式“%.c”中的模式字符“%”之后可得到目标的依赖文
件“foo.c”
。这就是目标“foo.o”的依赖关系“foo.o: foo.c”
,规则的命令行描述了如
何完成由“foo.c”编译生成目标“foo.o”
。命令行中“$&”和“$@”是自动化变量,
表示规则中的第一个依赖文件,
表示规则中的目标文件
(可参考 10.5.3 自
动化变量 一小节)
。上边的这个规则描述了以下两个具体的规则:
foo.o : foo.c
$(CC) -c $(CFLAGS) foo.c -o foo.o
bar.o : bar.c
$(CC) -c $(CFLAGS) bar.c -o bar.o
在使用静态模式规则时,指定的目标必须和目标模式相匹配,否则执行make时将
会得到一个错误提示。
如果存在一个文件列表,
其中一部分符合某一种模式而另外一部
分符合另外一种模式,这种情况下我们可以使用“filter”函数(可参考 第八章 make
的内嵌函数)来对这个文件列表进行分类,在分类之后对确定的某一类使用模式规则。
files = foo.elc bar.o lose.o
$(filter %.o,$(files)): %.o: %.c
$(CC) -c $(CFLAGS) $& -o $@
$(filter %.elc,$(files)): %.elc: %.el
emacs -f batch-byte-compile $&
其中;$(filter %.o,$(files))的结果为“bar.o lose.o”“filter”函数过滤不符合“%.o”
模式的文件名而返回所有符合此模式的文件列表。
第一条静态模式规则描述了这些目标
文件是通过编译对应的.c 源文件来重建的。同样第二条规则也是使用这种方式。
我们通过另外一个例子来看一下自动环变量“$*”在静态模式规则中的使用方法:
bigoutput littleoutput : %output : text.g
generate text.g -$* & $@
当执行此规则的命令时,
自动环变量
“茎” 在这里就是
“big” “little”
静态模式规则对一个较大工程的管理非常有用。
它可以对整个工程的同一类文件的
重建规则进行一次定义,而实现对整个工程中此类文件指定相同的重建规则。比如,可
以用来描述整个工程中所有的.o 文件的依赖规则和编译命令。通常的做法是将生成同
一类目标的模式定义在一个 make.rules 的文件中。在工程各个模块的 Makefile 中包含
静态模式makefile中$(cobjs): $(obj)/%.o: $(src)/%.c
http://www.gnu.org/software/make/manual/make.html
4.12.1 Syntax of Static Pattern Rules
Here is the syntax of a static pattern rule:
targets ...: target-pattern: prereq-patterns ...
The targets list specifies the targets that the rule applies to. The targets can contain wildcard characters, just like the targets of ordinary rules (see Using Wildcard Characters in File Names).
The target-pattern and prereq-patterns say how to compute the prerequisites of each target. Each target is matched against the target-pattern to extract a part of the target name, called the stem. This stem is substituted into each of the prereq-patterns to make the prerequisite names (one from each prereq-pattern).
Each pattern normally contains the character ‘%’ just once. When the target-pattern matches a target, the ‘%’ can match any par this part is called the stem. The rest of the pattern must match exactly. For example, the target foo.o matches the pattern ‘%.o’, with ‘foo’ as the stem. The targets foo.c and foo.out do not match that pattern.
The prerequisite names for each target are made by substituting the stem for the ‘%’ in each prerequisite pattern. For example, if one prerequisite pattern is %.c, then substitution of the stem ‘foo’ gives the prerequisite name foo.c. It is legitimate to write a prerequisite pattern that does not contain ‘%’; then this prerequisite is the same for all targets.
‘%’ characters in pattern rules can be quoted with preceding backslashes (‘\’). Backslashes that would otherwise quote ‘%’ characters can be quoted with more backslashes. Backslashes that quote ‘%’ characters or other backslashes are removed from the pattern before it is compared to file names or has a stem substituted into it. Backslashes that are not in danger of quoting ‘%’ characters go unmolested. For example, the pattern the\%weird\\%pattern\\ has ‘the%weird\’ preceding the operative ‘%’ character, and ‘pattern\\’ following it. The final two backslashes are left alone because they cannot affect any ‘%’ character.
Here is an example, which compiles each of foo.o and bar.o from the corresponding .c file:
objects = foo.o bar.o
all: $(objects)
$(objects): %.o: %.c
$(CC) -c $(CFLAGS) $& -o $@
Here ‘$&’ is the automatic variable that holds the name of the prerequisite and ‘$@’ is the automatic variable that holds th see Automatic Variables.
Each target specified must matc a warning is issued for each target that does not. If you have a list of files, only some of which will match the pattern, you can use the filter function to remove nonmatching file names (see Functions for String Substitution and Analysis):
files = foo.elc bar.o lose.o
$(filter %.o,$(files)): %.o: %.c
$(CC) -c $(CFLAGS) $& -o $@
$(filter %.elc,$(files)): %.elc: %.el
emacs -f batch-byte-compile $&
In this example the result of ‘$(filter %.o,$(files))’ is bar.o lose.o, and the first static pattern rule causes each of these object files to be updated by compiling the corresponding C source file. The result of ‘$(filter %.elc,$(files))’ is foo.elc, so that file is made from foo.el.
Another example shows how to use $* in static pattern rules:
bigoutput littleoutput : %output : text.g
generate text.g -$* & $@
When the generate command is run, $* will expand to the stem, either ‘big’ or ‘little’.
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JQ:即奸情。拼音缩写，和CJ（纯洁）什么的差不多。F女：腐女。指热衷于耽美事业的女性。YY程度很高。腐化程度比较深。
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楼主问的是女f，又不是f女坐等正解
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f是female，也是女性的意思
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F女：腐女。指热衷于耽美事业的女性。YY程度很高。腐化程度比较深。
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f是female，也是女性的意思如果女F是两个子的话， 也 可以是女朋友， F ，FRIEND
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Using what he had on hand, they tried some chicken and baked another batch of bread rolls, and the two of them ate on the porch, serenaded by a mockingbird. While they were inside doing the dishes* they heard a knock at the door, Noah left Allie in the kitchen.Knock, knock. Louder.Noah approached the door. Knock, knock.&I'm coming,& he said as he opened the door. &Oh, my God.&He stared for a moment at a beautiful woman in her early fifties, a woman he would have recognized anywhere.&Hello, Noah,& she said.Noah said nothing.“May I come in?& she asked, her voice steady, revealing nothing.He stammered out a reply as she walked past him, stopping just before the stairs.&Who is it?& Allie shouted from the kitchen, and the woman turned at the sound of her voice.&It's your mother.” Noah finally answered, and immediately after he said it he heard the sound of breaking glass.&I knew you would be here,& Anne Nelson said to her daughter as the three of them sat around the coffee table in the living room.&How could you be so sure?&    &You're my daughter. One day when you have kids of your own, you'll know the answer.& She smiled, but her manner was stiff, and Noah imagined how difficult this must be for her. &I saw the article, too, and I saw your reaction. I also saw how tense you've been during the last couple of weeks, and when you said you were going shopping near the coast, I knew exactly what you meant.&&What about daddy?&Anne Nelson shook her head, &No, I didn't tell your father or anyone else about it. Nor did I tell anyone where I was going today.&&Why did you come?& Allie asked.&I came because I had to,& her mother said, &which I'm sure is the same reason you came. Am I right?&Allie nodded.Anne turned to Noah. &I know you don't think so, but I always liked you. I just didn't think you were right for my daughter. Can you understand that?&He shook his head as he answered. &No, not really. It wasn’t fair to me, and it wasn't fair to Allie. Otherwise she wouldn't be here.& She watched him as he answered, but she said nothing. Allie, sensing an argument, cut in. &What do you mean when you say you had to come? Don't you trust me?&Anne turned back to her daughter. &This has nothing to do with trust. This has to do with Lon. He called the house last night to talk to me about Noah, and he's on his way here right now. He seemed very upset. I thought you'd want to know.&Allie inhaled sharply. &He's on his way?&&As we speak. He arranged to have the trial postponed until next week. If he's not in New Bern yet, he's close.&&What did you say to him?&&Not much. But he knew. He had it all figured out. He remembered my telling him about Noah a long time ago.”Allie swallowed hard, &Did you tell him I was here?&&No. And I won't. That's between you and him. But knowing him, I'm sure he'll find you. All it takes is a couple of phone calls to the right people. After all, I was able to find you,&Allie, though obviously wearied, smiled at her mother. &Thank you,& she said, and her mother readied for her hand.&I know we've had our differences, Allie, and that we haven't seen eye to eye on everything. But I'm-your mother and that means I’ll always love you.&Allie was silent for a moment, then: &What should I do?&&I don’t know, Allie, That's up to you. But I would think about it. Think about what you really want.”Allie turned away, her eyes reddening. A moment later a tear drifted down her cheek. &I don't know . . . & She trailed off, and her mother squeezed her hand.Anne looked at Noah, who had been sitting with his head down, listening carefully. As if on cue, he returned her gaze, nodded and left the room.When he was gone, Anne whispered, &Do you love him?&&Yes, I do,& Allie answered softly, &very much.&&Do you love Lon?&&Yes, I do. I love him, too. Dearly, but in a different way. He doesn't make me feel the way Noah does.&&No one will ever do that,& her mother said, and she released Allie's hand. &I can't make this decision for you, Allie, this one's all yours. I want you to know, though, that I love you. And I always will. I know that doesn't help, but it's all I can do.&She reached in her handbag and removed a bundle of letters held together with string, the envelopes old and slightly yellowed.&These are the letters that Noah wrote to you. I never threw them away, and they haven't been opened. I know I shouldn't have kept them from you, and I'm sorry for that. But I was just trying to protect you. I didn't realize...”Allie took them and ran her hand over them, shocked.&I should go, Allie. You've got some decisions to make, and you don't have much time. Do you want me to stay in town?”Allie shook her head, &No, this is up to me.&Anne nodded and watched her daughter for a moment, wondering. Finally she stood, went around the table, leaned over and kissed Allie on the cheek. She could see the confusion in her daughter's eyes as Allie embraced her.They stood together for another minute, just holding each other.&Thanks for coming, Allie said, “I love you.&&I love you too.&As her mother made her way out of the living room, Allie thought that she heard her whisper, &Follow your heart,” but she couldn’t be sure,NOAH OPENED the door for Anne Nelson as she went out.“Goodbye Noah,& she said quietly. He nodded without speaking. There wasn't
they both knew that. She turned from him and left, closing the door behind her. Noah watched her dim away without looking back. She was a strong woman, he thought to himself, and he knew then where Allie got itNoah peeped into the living room, saw Allie sitting with her head down, then went to the back porch, knowing that she needed to be alone. He sat quietly in his rocker and watched the waterAfter what seemed like an eternity he heard the back door open. He didn’t turn to look at her—for some reason he couldn’t-and he listened as she sat in the chair beside him.“I’m sorry,& Allie said. &I bad no idea this would happen.&Noah shook his head. &Don't be sorry. We both knew it was coming to some form or another.&&It’s still hard.”&I know.& He finally turned to her, reaching for her hand. &Is here anything I can do to make it easier?&She shook her head. &No. Not really. I have to do this alone. Besides, I'm not sure what I'm going to say to him yet.& She looked down and her voice became softer. &I guess it depends on him and low much he knows. If my mother was right, he may have suspicions, but he doesn't know anything for sure.&Noah felt tightness in his stomach. When he finally spoke his voice was steady, but she could hear the pain in it. &You're not going to tell him about us, are you?&&I don't know. I really don't. While I was in the living room, I kept asking myself what I really wanted in my life.& She squeezed his hand. &And do you know what the answer was? The answer was that I want you. I want us. I love you and I always have.& She took a deep breath before going on. &But I also want a happy ending without hurting anyone. And I know that if I stayed, people would be hurt. Especially Lon. I wasn't lying when I told you that I love him. He doesn't make me feel the same way you do, but I care for him, and this wouldn't be fair to him. But staying here would also hurt my family and friends. I would be betraying everyone I know ... I don't know if I can do that.&&You can't live your life for other people. You've got to do what's right for you, even if it hurts some people you love.&&I know,& she said, &but no matter what I choose I have to live with it. For ever. I have to be able to go forward and not look back any more. Can you understand that?&He shook his head and tried to keep his voice steady. &Not really. Not if it means losing you. I can't do that again.&She didn't say anything but lowered her head. Noah went on: &Could you really leave me without looking back?&She bit her lip as she answered. Her voice was beginning to crack. &I don't know. Probably not.&&Would that be fair to Lon?&She didn't answer. Instead she stood up, wiped her face and walked to the edge of the porch where she leaned against the post and watched the water before answering quietly: &No.&&It doesn't have to be like this, Allie,& he said. &We're adults now, we have the choice we didn't have before. We're meant to be together. We always have been.& He walked to her side and put his hand on her shoulder. &I don't want to live the rest of my life thinking about you and dreaming of what might have been. Stay with me, Allie.&Tears filled her eyes. &I don't know if I can,& she whispered.&You can. Allie ... I can't live my life happily knowing you're with someone else. That would kill a part of me. What we have is rare. It's too beautiful to just throw it away.&After a moment he gently turned her towards him, took her hands and stared at her, willing her to look at him. Allie finally faced him with moist eyes. After a long silence, Noah brushed the tears from her cheeks with his fingers. His voice caught as he saw what her eyes were telling him. &You're not going to stay, are you?& He smiled weakly. &You want to, but you can't.&&Oh, Noah,& she said as the tears began again, &try to understand—&He shook his head to stop her. &I know what you're trying to say—I can see it in your eyes. But I don't want to understand it, Allie. I don't want it to end this way. I don't want it to end at all. But if you leave, we both know we'll never see each other again.&She leaned into him and began to cry harder as Noah fought back his own tears. He wrapped his arms around her.&Allie, I can't force you to stay with me. But no matter what happens in my life, I'll never forget these last couple of days with you. I've been dreaming about this for years.&He kissed her gently, and they embraced as they had when she first got out of her car two days ago. Finally Allie let him go and wiped her tears. &I have to get my things, Noah.&He didn't go inside with her. Instead he sat down in the rocker, spent. He watched her go into the house and listened as the sound of her movements faded into nothing. She emerged minutes later with everything she'd brought and walked towards him with her head down. She handed him the drawing she had done yesterday morning. &Here, Noah. I made this for you.&Noah took the drawing and unrolled it slowly.The image in the foreground, which occupied most of the page, was a picture of how he looked now. Noah noticed that she had pencilled in every detail of his face. It was almost as if she'd copied it from a recent photograph. The second image was the front of the house. The detail there was also incredible, as if she had sketched it while sitting beneath the oak tree.&It's beautiful, Allie. Thank you.& He attempted a smile. &I told you that you were an artist.& She nodded, her face cast downwards, her lips pressed together. It was time for her to go.They walked to her car slowly, without speaking. When they reached it, Noah embraced her again until he could feel the tears welling up in his own eyes. He kissed her lips and both cheeks, then with his finger softly brushed the places he'd kissed.&I love you, Allie.&&I love you, too.&Noah opened her car door and they kissed one more time. Then she slid behind the wheel, never taking her eyes from him. She put the packet of letters and her handbag next to her on the seat and fumbled for the keys, then turned the ignition. It started easily and the engine began to turn over impatiently. It was almost time.Noah pushed her door closed with both hands and Allie rolled down the window. She reached out her hand and Noah took it for just a moment, moving his fingers softly against her skin.&Stay with me,& Noah mouthed without sound, and this for some reason hurt more than Allie would have expected. The tears began to fall hard now, but she couldn't speak. Reluctantly, she looked away and pulled her hand from his. She put the car in gear.He fell into an almost trancelike state as he watched it roll slowly forwards, the gravel crunching under the wheels. Slowly the car turned towards the road that would take her back to town. Noah felt dizzy at the sight. &Don't go!& he wanted to shout. But he didn't say anything, and a minute later the only remaining signs of her were the tracks that her car had left behind.She was gone. For ever this time. For ever. He closed his eyes.DRIVING WITH TEARS in her eyes was difficult, but Allie went on anyway. She kept the window rolled down, thinking the fresh air might help clear her mind, but it didn't seem to. Nothing would help. She was tired, and she wondered if she would have the energy she needed to talk to Lon. And what was she going to say? She hoped that something would come to her when the time came. By the time she reached Front Street, she had herself a little more under control. Traffic was light and she had time to watch strangers going about their business as she drove through New Bern. At a service station, a mechanic was looking under the bonnet of a new car. Two women were pushing prams just outside Hoffman-Lane, chatting while they window-shopped. She saw the inn just up the street while she was stopped at a red light. She took a deep breath when the light turned green and drove slowly until she reached the parking lot. She turned in and saw Lon's car sitting in the first spot. Although the one next to it was open, she passed it and picked a spot a little further from the entrance.She turned off the engine, then reached into the glove compartment for a mirror and brush. Looking at herself, she saw her eyes were still red and puffy. Like yesterday after the rain, she was sorry she didn't have any make-up, though she doubted it would help much now. She reached for her purse, opened it, and once again looked at the article that had brought her here. It felt impossible to her that she had arrived only the day before yesterday. It seemed like a lifetime since her dinner with Noah.Starlings chirped in the trees around her. The clouds had begun to break up now, and Allie could see blue in between patches of white. It was going to be a beautiful day.It was the kind of day she would have liked to spend with Noah, and as she was thinking about him, she remembered the letters her mother had given her and reached for them. She untied the package and found the first letter he had written her. She began to open it, then stopped because she could imagine what was in it. Something simple, no doubt—things he'd done, memories of the summer, perhaps some questions. Instead she reached for the last letter, the one on the bottom of the stack. The goodbye letter. This one interested her far more. How had he said it? How would she have said it?The envelope was thin. One, maybe two pages. Whatever he had written wasn't too long. She turned it over and checked the back. No name, just a street address in New Jersey. She held her breath as she used her fingernail to prise it open.Unfolding it, she saw it was dated March 1935. Two and a half years without a reply.She straightened the page and began to read.My dearest Allie,I don't know what to say any more except that I couldn't sleep last night because I knew that it is over between us. It is a different feeling for me, one that I never expected. Looking back, I suppose it couldn't have ended another way. You and I were different. We came from different worlds, and yet you were the one who taught me the value of love. You showed me what it was like to care for another, and I am a better man because of it. I don't want you ever to forget that.I am not bitter because of what has happened. On the contrary I am secure in knowing that what we had was real, and I am happy we were able to come together for even a short time. And if, in some distant place in the future, we see each other in our new lives, I will smile at you with joy, and remember how we spent a summer learning from each other and growing in love. And maybe, for a brief moment, you'll feel it too, and you'll smile back and savour the memories we will always share.I love you, Allie.NoahShe read the letter again, then put it back into the envelope. She knew she couldn't delay any longer. Lon was waiting for her.Her legs felt weak as she stepped out of the car. She paused and took a deep breath, and as she started across the parking lot she realized that she still wasn't sure what she was going to say to him.And the answer didn't finally come until she reached the door and opened it and saw Lon standing in the lobby.
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